Falling – David Archuleta

I’m in office now. Cannot work. Cannot think. Feeling stressed from all sides. Don’t know how to get out of this maze of unsurity, pressure and fazed understanding of stuff.
Unsurity about my life. Some weeks ago, I was so sure about the life that I will see in future. Now, with loads of additions and subtractions from here and there, I feel I’ve come back to square one … the place where I started.
Pressure about expectations. I am surrounded by many people who are close to me. They have a number of expectations for me. Not going into the details of all, I can tell you that what they really expect from me is to be happy. Ironically each and everyone of them seem to know what will make me happy! I ask myself, is the happiness really for me or for them?
Why do we want somebody else’s happiness when ultimately we are seeking our own happiness on their faces?
I do understand that man is a social animal and being selfless means seeking happiness in the ones closest to us. But why is it that in the process of doing that we actually start expecting more and ultimately make them and ourselves sad?
Life is so confusing!
Understanding of many things are hazy. Seems like Im driving in a path which is filled with smog! I try to go straight. But am unsure. Am I going in the right direction? I was so sure when I started, why am I not sure now? I know that I am not wrong, but why do I still feel that I’m not right either?

With so much going on inside me, I am definitely not in the right mind to be thinking anything right. I keep asking questions to myself. I get no answer. I ask again, and I get a blank again. Why am I feeling this way? Feeling like I’m right and I am wrong. What am I? Do I have a split personality? What is wrong with me?

Somebody once told me, you think too much. Guess, I do. But why shouldn’t I? Asking questions is how you understand things and you move forward in life. So, why shouldn’t we think of answers. After all most of the answers are embedded inside us!! Isn’t it?

I realized that there is a song for this particular situation … Falling by David Archuleta.

Lyrics:

Feels like my life’s been passing by
With happiness just bein’ a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I’m drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea

‘Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that’s calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
‘Cause I’m stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don’t lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I’m runnin’ at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation’s gone

‘Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that’s calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling

Oh

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
‘Cause I’m stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don’t lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
‘Cause I’m stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don’t lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I’ll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to the end

Enjoy!

Scary Thoughts

I feel sad and hurt. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, things don’t really seem right. I’m scared. I’m scared of losing people I love. I’m scared of knowing who is really mine and who is not. There are times when I feel I’m alone in this world. I just cannot understand what I should do or what I should not do to stay fine.

Time has come to stay low. Time has come to just let things be and not do anything. Time has come when I will just have to wait for good times to come back.

I really hope I stay sane and get through this hard time.

Strange & Beautiful (I’ll Put A Spell On You) – Wicker Park

Awesome song

Lyrics

I’ve been watching your world from afar,
I’ve been trying to be where you are,
And I’ve been secretly falling apart, unseen.
To me, you’re strange and you’re beautiful,
You’d be so perfect with me but you just can’t see,
You turn every head but you don’t see me.

I’ll put a spell on you,
You’ll fall asleep and I’ll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I’ll be the first thing you see, lyric’s top
And you’ll realise that you love me.

Yeah…
Yeah…

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes…

I’ll put a spell on you,
You’ll fall asleep,
I’ll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I’ll be the first thing you see,
And you’ll realise that you love me.

I’ll put a spell on you,
You’ll fall asleep ‘cos I’ll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I’ll be the first thing you see,
And you’ll realise that you love me, yeah…

Yeah…
Yeah…
Yeah…
Yeah…

ENjoy!

Dil To Hai Dil – Muqaddar Ka Sikandar (1978)

Download link to the song

Lyrics

Dil To Hain Dil Dil Kaa Ayetabaar Kyaa Kije
Aa Gayaa Jo Kisee Pe Pyaar Kyaa Kije

Yaadon Mein Teree Khoyee, Raaton Ko Main Naa Soyee
Haalat Ye Mere Dil Kee Jaane Naa Jaane Koee
Baraso Hain Tarasee Aankhe, Jaagee Hain Pyaasee Raate
Aayee Hain Aate Aate, Hothhon Pe Dil Kee Baate
Pyaar Mein Tere, Dil Kaa Mere Kuchh Bhee Ho Anjaam
Bekaraaree Mein Hain Karaar Kyaa Kije

Chhaye Hain Man Pe Mere, Madahosh Nainaa Tere
Ghere Hain Tan Ko Mere Teree Baahon Ke Ghere
Dooree Sahee Naa Jaaye, Chain Kahee Naa Aaye
Chalanaa Hain Ab To Teree Palakon Ke Saaye Saaye
Bas Naa Chale Re, Shaam Sawere Le Ke Teraa Naam
Dil Dhadakataa Hain Baar Baar Kyaa Kije

Have You Ever Been In Love?

Found this on youtube …. wanted to store this somewhere, as it seemed true.
This love isn’t confined to the romantic love that people obsess about. It’s love with anybody, anything … absolutely anyone. Love is always like this!

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn’t it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens up your heart
and it means that someone can get inside you
and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses,
you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you,
then one person,
no different from any other person,
wanders into your normal life…
You give them a piece of you.
They do something one day,
like hug you
or smile at you,
and then your life isn’t your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It’s a soul-heart connection
that you cannot escape…

Defying Gravity – Glee

First heard in the voice of Idina Menzel & Kristin Chenoweth in the Broadway Musical – Wicked, Defying Gravity is the song. Yes, the song which if I had heard 10 years ago, I wouldn’t have been here. I would have been doing something different. Clearly speaking, I would have been following my heart and basically defying gravity!

Heard in the musical dramedy, Glee. Season 1 Episode 9 – ‘Wheels’.
Song: Defying Gravity
Sung by: Lea Michelle (Rachel) and Chris Colfer (Kurt)

Download Defying Gravity by Lea Michelle

Download Defying Gravity by Chris Colfer

Listen to both singing in this youtube version

Lyrics:-

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It’s time to try
Defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I’m through accepting limits
‘Cause someone says they’re so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I’ll never know!
Too long I’ve been afraid of
Losing love I guess I’ve lost
Well, if that’s love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I’d sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I’m defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I’d sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I’m defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And never bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

ENjoy

Gaya/Bodh Gaya: On the Minus

Gaya: on the minus is all about being one of the the filthiest city in the world. I do wonder, if there wouldn’t have been the temples and statues would anyone even think of going there?
Definitely not!
Thinking again, would there be so much filth if the temples and statues wern’t there?
Why think of something which if changed would change about 3000 years of history!?

Excerpts from “Disorder in the American Courts”

Funniest Forward!!!

A book called “Disorder in the American Courts” , and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.
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ATTORNEY : She had three children, right?
WITNESS : Yes.
ATTORNEY : How many were boys?
WITNESS : None.
ATTORNEY : Were there any girls?
WITNESS : Your Honor, I think I need a different attorney. Can I get a new attorney?
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ATTORNEY : How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS : By death.
ATTORNEY : And by whose death was it terminated?
WITNESS : Now whose death do you suppose terminated it?
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ATTORNEY : Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS : He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY : Was this a male or a female?
WITNESS : Guess.
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ATTORNEY : Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?
WITNESS : All my autopsies are performed on dead people. Would you like to rephrase that?
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ATTORNEY : Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS : The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
ATTORNEY : And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS : No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy on him!
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ATTORNEY : This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
WITNESS : Yes.
ATTORNEY : And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS : I forget.
ATTORNEY : You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?
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— And the best for last: —
ATTORNEY : Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS : Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY : I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS : Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law.

Why Do We Shout When We Are Angry?

This is an amazing forward I received from my cousin Priya. Pretty much answers the question …

A saint asked his disciples, ‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’

Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’
‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?’ asked the saint. ‘Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint.

Finally he explained, ‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’

Then the saint asked, ‘What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small…’

The saint continued, ‘When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’

MORAL: When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.

 

Jai Ho! Really?

Let’s just get to the point. Today is 14th of November 2009. It is quite an important day for all the A.R. Rahman fans in Kolkata. A.R. Rahman decides to visit his worshippers, ahem… fans in the Salt lake stadium, and people flock into and outside the stadium like as if Ma Durga has descended down to earth just realizing that the 5 days of Durga Puja was not enough!

Call me a sarcastic, but this whole experience of sitting in an overcrowded mini-bus unable to even move an inch for 2 whole hours was not an experience I’d like to experience again! While sitting there I must have thought millions of things. Some like -
Does Kolkata really have this kind of population, or did people from all over the country have come to visit this musical maestro?
What are these guys even going inside for … haven’t they heard any of the Rahman songs? Haven’t they seen performances on TV?
Infact, at least the player will be visible on TV. The back standers will be just listening to really bad loudspeaker echo that would sound more like noise rather than world famous melodies!
So many women with children, crying on their shoulders, holding their little tiny hands holding balloons. Bet they have not an inkling of what’s going on. They might have heard Pappu Can’t Dance Sala! They might have even sung “Jai Ho…” in their school independence day programs. Guess, that’s how their parents persuaded them to come to this madness called a “live show”. But, honestly, is it a nice way to be spending Children’s Day?

Ok, agreed, this live show will rake in big pockets for the singing group and the band. Also a lot of liver patients will be helped, since this is supposed to be a charity show. But …

Well, I know many will think I’m being short sighted and too selfish. But if you would have seen the 70 something old guy sitting beside me hoping to reach home to have dinner or the lady standing among the crowded public trying even stand straight. I felt really lucky and at the same time helpless (thanks to my hero complex :rolleyes:)!
Wonder what Superman would have done! Maybe take all the traffic-attacked buses and cars and flown a little to their destinations!
Sigh!!

Anyways, back to reality … seriously I’m flustered by this kind of madness for a live show. I wish there’s some way of controlling traffic, because apparantly the Kolkata police do not have the capability to control traffic nor are they ready for such huge live show airing.

These kinda shows happen all over the world, but does life and people come to standstill just because a handful of artists decide to show their prowess to the public on the stage?

Think people!

Here are a couple of pics I took from the bus …

Entrance Line in front of the Salt Lake Stadium to get inside for the A.R.Rahman concert

Crowd in front of the gate of the Salt Lake Stadium for the A.R.Rahman Concert